Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

I wasn't sure this day could get any better but I just got back from playing Mario Kart Wii and it's AWESOME. English Best Friend and I have been handing peoples asses to them in Mario Kart (for the Gamecube) for almost four years and she got the new game today (thank you Amazon) so we can retain our title...it's so frickin cool and the remotes (wireless steering wheels) are really easy to use once you get the hang of them. The best thing (besides the new races) are the vintage ones from systems like the N64, SNES and Gameboy Advance which you think you know but until you play with the new controller you have no idea. If I wasn't going away for the next two weekends I would completely be a gaming nerd and practice over there...but I guess I'll just have to wait to buy my own :)

I GOT THE FUCKING JOB!!!

So, I was just offered the job at one of my old vendor's on the Peninsula and the money's really good and the people are really nice and I'm going to be an Account Manager as well as help them run the new business for Printing - I AM SO FRICKIN EXCITED YOU HAVE NO IDEA!!!! Thanks to EVERYONE who supported me this past week by trying to find me job opportunities and sending me funny little emails - I have the best friends ever. So, on that note, I'm going to go celebrate much like I did when I was fired a week ago - with a bottle of wine :) I LOVE MY LIFE (and New York here we come)!

Scream my lungs out and try to get to you...

I’m doing a big clean up in the eventuality of a move. I know, I’ll be fine and no doubt I’ll find a job this week but there’s that “just in case.” So I’ve found the usual: bills, bits of paper with song titles written on them, lyrics from an idea a lifetime ago, old notebooks filled with packing lists, business law notes, and more importantly countless cds featuring the stories of “the boy and girl.”
Now though, I’m listening to the lyrics of John Mayer’s “Stop This Train” (“so scared of getting older, I’m only good at being young”) and wondering when it got so hard. I’m not even sure if I’m good at being young. The last three years (the time I’ve lived in this apartment with my Bell) have involved three breakups, three jobs, countless interviews, money troubles, but they’ve also involved the good things: late night conversations on the patio, family nights with the boys, dancing around the apartment, days by the pool, two successful Christmas parties, lots of laughter and lazy weekends with the guy of my choice. And as I was the perpetual third wheel tonight I wanted things to change again. I wanted to smile and feel that life couldn’t be this shitty or, if it was it wasn’t going to stay that way. My bed’s too big and starfishing is getting old.
My wish: have a proper beginning with a guy who makes me feel like I’m home, loves music obsessively too, someone who'll pursue me and not the other way around and who will make me giggle until my stomach hurts. And I’m going to get it, because it’s not that hard, right?
Yellowcard - Only One

Do geese have knees? Getting lost in Brentwood...

So, no word yet on the job front but I'm not going to worry about it until tomorrow...
As for last night, I haven't been to a house party in ages and it was really fun but in the middle of nowhere (which was a good thing seeing as there was a dj spinning in the back yard and tons of people there). On our way there, Bell and I got into a discussion as to whether geese (and/or chicken) had knees (and I'm sure her boyfriend was super excited about THAT conversation) to which after a quick google search we determined they do. More disturbing was that she continued to talk about it while I was looking on my phone for the info. And this was before beer...it was fun though and I think one of my friends was appalled at the amount of cupcakes I ate - he obviously doesn't know me in a drunken state. At least when I was walked in on in the bathroom while peeing I wasn't that offended as Bell managed to have a conversation with the chick who asked her "Are you Donny's girlfriend?!" completely oblivious to the fact that, yes, i was still in there.

I also saw Cloverfield on Friday which I have to admit was pretty good and the subway scene terrified me. Crawly things that bite and darkness - not my favorite combo. And all through this I managed to get a slight, freckly tan....
Now, seeing as it's late in the day and I've kind of slacked of all weekend, here's your Sunday mix, old school soul, rhythm & blues stylie:
Stevie Wonder - Signed, Sealed, Delivered

A Tribe Called Quest - Like It Like That

De La Soul - Me, Myself & I

Aretha Franklin - Think

John Legend - Slow Dance

Nas - Can't Forget About You (ft. Chrisette Michelle)

Musiq - Something

Common - I Want You

Pour myself a cup of ambition

When I worked at the agency before last and we got to a Friday afternoon at 5:00, Ideal Man and I would look over at each other, check no one was on the phone and then he would turn up his speakers and play Dolly Parton's "Nine to Five." We would dance around the office like idiots, generally piss off a lot of people but the place was woken up...however slightly. The reason that I thought about this? I'm currently sitting out on my patio, smoking and drinking at 4:00 on a weekday (and that song just came on) writing the copy for our website and thinking life's actually not too bad right now :)

I got offered the job for the random interview I went for this morning so New York is back on - WHOO HOO! I'm waiting for the official offer to come through and then compare it to the other (potential) offer I may get for the interview tomorrow afternoon. Not bad for a girl who had no prospects at the beginning of the week...speaking of jobs, my dad got the job in Georgia so looks like the family will once again be moving out of state - I wonder what Christmas in Georgia is like?

As for the other fun business, Ampersand Designs blog has also been added to my favorites on the right as we now have a date for the launch party: June 8th in Pleasanton. Let me know if you want to be added to the guest list. Bell and I were up late last night and realized that we actually had nearly all of the pieces made...and that the website might be tested next weekend and up, and that we're generally awesome :) It's insane to me how quickly it's all come together but the best things in life tend to fall into place anyway...

Dolly Parton - Nine to Five

I ain't born typical

ADDENDUM: I just got another interview for tomorrow morning - apparently I'm on a roll :) And to celebrate, here's one of my favorites:
The Beatles - Blackbird (Doesn't fail to reduce me to helpless giggles when the cracky blackbird kicks in towards the end)


DUDE! So, looks like I was pretty much offered a job today (not bad for my first interview post the soul-sucking, hellbound douchebaggery that is Jokeoto - no, i'm not bitter ;) ) and my potential future boss has given me a couple of days to think about it. It would be leaving the agency arena for me but if the money's right I'm taking it. I've got another interview (for a different company) on Friday so tomorrow I will be at home all day (may as well take advantage of it now that I'm sorta safe...), contemplating life with the stereo turned up really loud...

Landing on my feet...

It's amazing how much shit you can get done in a day (when you're unemployed). This golden girl (that makes me sound like I'm 70 and in a retirement home...never mind) managed to mess around with Irfanview, get two interviews this week with companies who are really interested in me (one purely by accident), apply to a gazillion other jobs and also create more for our line. Ampersand Designs (the link on the right) is mine and Bell's jewelry line set to debut mid-May (launch party details will be on here so keep checking). The pads of my thumbs hurt from using pliers for 6 straight hours but our stuff is starting to look really good. I wonder if they let Malaysian sweatshop workers listen to music like this while they're working....?
Virus Syndicate - Slow Down
Virus Syndicate - Clockwork

John, John, play the fight riff...

$5 says no one will be able to tell me where the headline to this post is from...(I'm guessing Mr. Soon-to-be-lawyer will know...)

So, after following my name twin's advice, I spent this weekend getting over myself. I didn't go out (except for the bridal shower today - which was fun but why is it whenever I see Adriane I end up speaking like for her for about an hour afterwards?) and watched tons of movies ("High Fidelity" - my be all end all of music movies (up there with "Almost Famous"), the type of people I would love to work with, the type of guy who loves music just as much as I do, and being able to talk about the type of lists I make up in my head anyway), worked on our business and generally stayed off the phone. It is only now I'm checking my emails and have a lot of hope for this next week. I have TONS of support from my friends, and a constant reminder that I always fall on my feet so give me time. Just over three years ago I was in THE EXACT SAME predicament. I'd been broken up with my boyfriend of six years and just got laid off from my first agency job (I'm starting to question if advertising is really for me...) and a week later I got a job that gave me the best experience ever and some of the best friends a girl could ask for...
Well, I have two potentials lined up for tomorrow and a call with my ex-boss so something's gotta come out of that right? Oh, and no sleeping in for me tomorrow - this girl's got a fight on her hands ;) So, in the spirit of that, here's my Sunday mix, a little late but I dare you to listen to "Looking down the barrel of a gun" and not wanna go fuck something up or at least jump start your life...

Beastie Boys - Looking Down the Barrel of a Gun

Deftones - Engine No. 9

Nine Inch Nails - The Perfect Drug

LL Cool J - Mama Said Knock You Out

I Mother Earth - Pisser
My Chemical Romance - I Never Told You What I Do for a Living
Linkin Park - Nobody's Listening

Muse - Butterflies & Hurricanes

Fiona Apple - Extraordinary Machine

Fuck this month...

I just lost my job. Basically one of the principals hasn't liked me since I called him out on a piece that went to press back in january and he knew I was right. He has a reputation (from certain freelance designers who have worked with him) for having Little Man Complex. So I was pulled downstairs to the infamous cafe that 2 others were fired from and the HR manager was already there. I got the "sorry we haven't given you your 90 day review yet but we feel like you're not up to par so we're letting you go" speech and i didn't say a damn thing. One of my co-workers had to bring my bag down so they could get the keys to the building back and they waited for her and escorted her back up. The whole situation is fucked. Way to boost company morale you stupid pieces of shit.
So I'm pissed off to high hell and can't figure out what to do: get drunk or look for a job? I'm voting with getting absolutely wasted.
I guess this tops off my shitty month...thanks to all you fuckers who made it what it was...

Awesomeness

You know what's stuck in my head? "I'ma roll around town with the windows open, system bump but the beats is broken..." There could be worse things...I love Junk Science :) I have a lunch today (which I'm not looking forward to) with the whole office in an effort to boost office morale. Um, how about you stop being dicks and then we'll talk?

You are not what I thought you were, hello to high & dry

I felt a little lost and confused over the past month's events this morning and started to write about it and thought "fuck off, you're better than this, don't do it." So, instead of sitting here crying about it, I've been listening to sad songs disguised as happy songs (listen to the lyrics and you'll find otherwise...). That and the new Cool Kids song. No category for that, it's just rad :)
Oh, and my business? Seeming more real than ever as we got our business cards last night and they're GLORIOUS! Three more weeks and our site will be up (and of course I'm in charge of writing copy so maybe I should get on that instead of slacking...).

I actually feel like a grown-up today and "You'll be fine" is punching through my head...

Aerosmith - Cryin

Asheru & Blue Black of The Unspoken Heard - Soon Come
The Hush Sound - We Intertwined
Sara Bareilles - Love Song

The Cool Kids - Oscar

And as an addendum - god, these guys are good:
Junk Science - Do It Easy (Daedelus remix)

You wanna do what?

So the Giants game. Bloody cold but both my friends came up with tons of ways for me to make money over the next couple of weeks...none of them feasible or maybe even legal...Giants games are not nearly as fun as A's games, only because the players aren't as hot ;)
Then one of my friends took it upon herself to see if she could hook me up with one of her friends, who I talked to (it's a fabulous gift to switch that English accent on at any given time) and then after taking stupid pictures in the car on the way home, i finally got one of him at 2:30 a.m. NOW, can I just say if you're going to do this, PLEASE do not send me pictures in the middle of the night. I am NOT coherent and I will NOT be giving you a response, even if you are going to the gym at 5 a.m. Nutty.
So...I found a new favorite artist who will be taking me through the summer (for those lazy Sundays where all you're doing is making out with someone ;) ). While Bell will be having little "Unspoken Heard" babies whose first words will be "Yo", mine will be little Jamie Lidell babies who will have soul for days and make me smile :)
Jamie Lidell - Daddy's Car

Jamie Lidell - Multiply (In a Minor Key - Live)

Jamie Lidell - Game For Fools

Just to top today off...

The Hush Sound - Hurricane
Massive Attack - Protection (No Protection remix)

Minor setback. Hopefully going to the Giants game tonight will take my mind off of it...

How do you live off of $400 for two weeks?

When I started this blog I had recently just got back from England, with the understanding that I would be paid for the time I was gone and it would just be deducted from my PTO. Well, that wasn't the case and I was pulled over to accounting today to say that my usual paycheck would be $400 as I'm getting the time I took off deducted because I hadn't accrued enough days. I can't argue back because I didn't have anything in writing and they hate me anyway.
Now my Mum's back to saying I should move home for a year to get my finances under control (and with my Dad interviewing in Georgia right now...um, no. Not so much) and I'm freaked out again. This job was supposed to help all this shit and instead it's just giving me bigger headaches and making me feel worthless everytime I walk in. I have 2 staffing agencies "working for me" (yeah, right, no-one's hiring right now) and there's no job listings - I was told I was too over-qualified for the ones I applied for (translation: too much $).
So, compared to last year, pretty much in the same boat. In fact, exactly in the same boat...with everything.

And that sucks because it was an awesome weekend. Went out to a fabulous dinner in the city with the family, Ideal Man and Bell and my parents best friends. I was trashed before we even sat down (thank you STELLA!) but what else is new. That and I broke a glass. Which was a real crap glass because it barely knocked the other glass and shattered. I do things big I do...It stayed gorgeous all weekend (which is why I now am sunburned in odd places) and I got to see 21 which is excellent - go see it, fabulous soundtrack too (anything that includes Amon Tobin is good in my book)...which leads me to me being confused and slightly tipsy lying there on Sunday night looking at this guy...and saying "What?" and him replying "You." And it was the sweetest thing. But it was coming out of the mouth of the wrong guy. Dammit.
The Kills - Cheap and Cheerful I have been singing this as loud as I can to get through today...
The Shotgun Wedding Quintet - Half Full or Half Empty
Asheru & Blue Black of The Unspoken Heard - Dear You

You only ever had her when you were a fever...

So, in tribute to this fabulously sunny day in San Francisco (they're rare...believe me) and the fact that I'm probably not going have time to post this weekend, here's some fun songs to celebrate in the heat. Oh, and I'ma gonna own that t-shirt above purely for the reason that it had me and Bell in stitches...

NoFx - I Gotta Pee I've been giggling all afternoon with this song...

The Kills - U R A Fever (JazZstePpa Remix)

Lil Mama - Shawty Get Loose (ft. T-Pain & Chris Brown)

The Broken Hearts - Blanco

Less Than Jake - My Very Own Flag

I got more wit, a better kiss...

Oh Panic how I love you. I just don't love your 14 year old fans that wear more eye makeup than me (and that's just the boys). So, true to form, Ideal Man and I decided to just scream obnoxiously. Therefore, my voice is shot today but it's awesome - i could totally be a phone sex operator right now. We danced like idiots (the floor wasn't really packed which was great), sang as much as we could and knew every word to "Lying is the most fun..." only because it's our song. It's been our song since October 2006 when we'd just both gone through rough breakups and I look back at that and go "What the fuck do I have to worry about now because that was a LOT harder to get through."

Point of the matter is when everyone predicted that this last person would screw me over (and I didn't listen) and when I knew (somewhere in the back of my head) that he didn't want me that way either even when I got the title, I should've broken it off ages ago. I should've walked away after Tahoe and not been such an idiot for a guy who couldn't handle me. And really, that's very sad...for him, not for me ;) I'm not wasting my time on guys who couldn't be bothered anymore. So with sore back, wrecked voice and my thin jeans on today this girl's got a smile on her face because really "You know it will always just be me."

Panic At The Disco - Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off (and yes, that really is the title)

Take a few shots, let it burn in your chest

It's a Thursday. A non-descript Thursday but for me, it's one of the best days EVER. To start with I'm going to see Panic at the Disco tonight at the Warfield (general admission floor of course...) which is awesome. Flight of the Conchords tickets go on sale on Sunday (they'll be in SF in May) and I'm hopefully going to be there if tickets are cheap enough. Then I get a message from a person who, well I ran into him at the Shiner when I was on a fucking date with Scalloped Edges and wasn't really good timing...anyway, it's kind of fun to see where that one's going...I also have been playing "one upmanship" with the Calitho young-un which is exhausting being witty and fabulous ALL the time :) Then there's the dinner reservations at Grand Cafe tomorrow night (no doubt copious amounts of drinking will take place) and then that gloriousness of the rest of the weekend (and it's rumored to be 85 degrees - which is great because I missed the last heatwave being in snow-filled England). BUT the piece de resistance for today is this. First of all, ignore the vaguely annoying "Riverdance" intro and just wait. The first listen had me almost peeing my pants when the beat kicked in. Seriously. A HUGE smile (only reserved for the best music) crossed my face and I've been listening to it non-stop. Only thing better would be to actually listen to it in my car, windows rolled down, new stereo system and all...oh a girl can wish :)
Justin Timberlake - Like I Love You (Son of Kick Remix)

Tinnitis ain't necessarily such a bad thing...

I love rapidly losing weight. And if i'd have known that coming off the pill would've done that, I would've come off it AGES ago. So because of that I'm now fitting into my skinny (impossibly low-waisted) jeans (the ones that every girl keeps in her closet and is her barometer for how fat she is) - and just in time for summer. Must be that drinking wine and eating nothing diet I've been on. AWESOME - HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!

Other things that made me smile:
-the guy skating his little heart out on rollerblades this morning as I was walking to work. Maybe he was on his way to check out that new movie "Men In Black". I've heard it's good.
-Ideal Man's business card that he designed for us. Fucking rad. He's a genius.
-My mother's reaction to said business card. Because she hasn't learned to scroll down, she thought an inkblot was our logo...
-My brother (in the wake of his 19th birthday) asking me how it was watching the Berlin wall fall (because he thinks he's so much younger than me) when in fact he was alive for that.
-Work being a little better than usual for some reason. Maybe because I'm not being a bitter and twisted soul/whip-cracker anymore - apparently people don't respond well to that...
-Diggnation announcing their first live show in SF in 2 years - Ideal Man & I will be there 4/30 at Mighty and fawning all over Alex
-This song (turn it up loud): 8Ball & MJG - Relax & Take Notes (XI Dubstep Remix)

Anyway, it's hump day, I have my weekend planned and actually the rest of my week - party party party - what's a single girl to do? :D

Drunk on a monday...

Ugh. Why is my bladder so small? And why is it so hard to type right now? Believe it or not, it just took me about 2 minutes to type those sentences. Damn. So, after drinking with my friend the Serbian and getting my ass checked to put my life in gear (and being told to move on because it was never going to work anyway), I'm now drunk. It was the bartender's fault pouring me a HUGE jack and coke. Mostly Jack. And embarrassingly enough I had to stop at a In-N-Out Burger to pee because I'm 26 years old dammit and apparently can't go further than 30 miles without needing to desperately go. I know i'm going to read this post in the morning and be like WTF? But whatever, there's a half a bottle of Pinot in the fridge callin my name...ugh. Why do guys I date suck?

First week down...

So family time's firmly back in place. Bell, Floopy, Jay-bird and I took up our usual Summer routine a little earlier this year and watched Entourage - the first season. We've been doing this for three years...why stop now? And yes, the couch still fits all of us. Jay-bird and I are back to being single again so I guess that aspect never changes no matter what summer it is :)
Monday morning tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it but after drinks with the Serbian I'm sure it'll be fine. He's always good for advice and putting me in my place...
I also rediscovered two albums vital to my sanity this weekend - Muse's Absolution and Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway. I may be ready to talk about the Russian soon - just not right now...
I'll tell you one thing though - it's weird not thinking about anyone else while making plans. I was only single 4 months ago but that feels like a lifetime...

Lazy Sunday

So after a weekend of drinking, going into the city (HOT COOKIE!) and waking up now with a slight hangover I'm ready to just chill. I'll be listening to these songs as loud as they go because they put a smile on my face and because..it's Sunday and it's a whole day to do nothing :) So get your stereos, iPods, Zunes on and dance around your apartment because that's what I'll be doing...

Q-Tip - Vivrant Thing
Talib Kweli - Get By
Stevie Wonder - Signed, Sealed, Delivered
Snoop Dogg ft. Justin Timberlake - Signs
Rihanna - Let Me
The Philosopher Kings - Hurts To Love You
Doves - Pounding
Ne-Yo - Because of You
Nas ft. Chrisette Michelle - Can't Forget About You

Beyond the anthills of the dawning of this plague

Ah music, how I love it. So in effort to listen to stuff that's just mine and doesn't have any reference to any boy I've dated I've got some very different things on my current playlist. But it's all stuff that makes me smile and sing as loud as I can in my car (which draws some very strange looks from the morning commuters). So listen and enjoy :)

James Brown - nuff said
James Brown - Payback

I used to live with 3 guys after college who loved to play "Deloused in the Comatorium" as loud as it could go. Therefore, somewhere along the line, this album rubbed off on me...
The Mars Volta - Cicatriz ESP

Super excited for their new album (and potentially seeing them live if they go on tour after their first show at Coachella this year)
Portishead - Wandering Star

On a side note, Ideal Man and I are going to see both Panic At The Disco and The Hush Sound at the Warfield next Thursday and I'm super excited to hear how loud those drums can go when "Medicine Man" starts playing :)
Panic At The Disco - Nine In The Afternoon

The Hush Sound - Medicine Man

Scalloped Edges...the possible Hollywood ending

So when I originally told this story to my girlfriends, their response was, "only you." Which is right. I find myself in ridiculous situations that make me giggle but this one was actually kind of sweet - it just didn't work out.

Last Thanksgiving, I flew down to Palm Desert to stay with my family at their timeshare for 4 days and was single. Had a great time, drank lots and sat out in the sun. Didn't think much of it aside from it being a relaxing vaca. My brother Jiggy is like a miniature version of me 8 years ago: drives like the wind, has a really sarcastic sense of humor and has a penchant for really stupid shows...so, it was his task to drive me to Santa Ana airport so I could make my flight and the kid got me there 2 hours before I was supposed to show up. I was bored and ended up sitting smoking outside using matches of course because sometime Airport security likes to be awesome and fully check me because I forgot a lighter in my bag. Some random guy comes up to me when I'm struggling to light a match and lets me borrow his lighter. He sat on his bag next to mine and I thought great, I'm going to have to make conversation here and I'm really not in the mood. Well I look over and he was really cute and started talking to me. Turns out he was a 23 year old senior at Chico State and trying to finish his degree so my first thought was great, he's a child and he goes to one of the biggest party schools in the state - so NOT my type. He was really sweet though and kinda worked his magic on me as we were going through security. We were on the same flight going up so I thought it would be rude if I just ditched him. I'd been to that airport a bunch of times on business from my last job so I knew the bar really well (thanks to my ex-boss for that!) and we ended up sitting there for a few drinks (which he bought incidentally). He ended up blatantly flirting with me and at the time I was all about the male attention (Oh who am I kidding - i always love it!).

We headed over to the gate and he asked me where I was sitting and it turned out we had seats next to each other. I'm sorry - WHAT!??!?! So I ended up getting on the plane first, texting Bell who advised me not to join the mile high club - stay classy San Diego! We ended up talking about stupid shit for an hour and then as we were coming down to land he asked me if this qualified as a date. Well, he'd paid for my drinks, he'd made me laugh and we'd been hanging out for about 3 hours. He then asked for my number and carried my bag out for me when we landed (in my head, ever the pessimist, I thought he was going to run off with it - i know a ton of underwear and flimsy tops wouldn't EXACTLY be a steal but still...). We were about to go our separate ways (because in stories like this people always have to walk in opposite directions) and then he went for the kill. Yes, I made out with a practical stranger in the middle of San Francisco airport. And it was AWESOME! After walking away, he chased me down two minutes later to make out with me a second time...and that was it. I walked out of the airport with his number in my phone and left it at that.

Two weeks later after some flirty text messages he ended up coming down on a Saturday night where I enlisted English Best Friend and her husband as bodyguards to this potential stalker/serial killer. Hey! You never know. But I would be stupid if I didn't take the jump because how awesome is that story to tell the grandkids!? Well it wasn't good from start to finish. We didn't have anything to talk about, he handed me a letter that he had HANDWRITTEN on stationery with scalloped edges (hence the nickname Bell christened him with) professing his love for me (English Best Friend and I read it in the bathroom before we went out - complete buzzkill) and then he stood and watched us dance at Sunshine and it CREEPED...ME...OUT...but he was a nice guy. He really was. I just wasn't ready for that. And he was so young...so maybe it led me to believe that I'm not ready for anything that serious - even when it's dropped in my lap. And the moral of the story kids is that you shouldn't make out with random guys in airports. Because nothing good ever comes of it and you end up feeling cheap and whorey and just a little bit scared that they know where you live...

Spanktastic Wednesday

So instead of working on this blog last night, Bell and I ended up drinking a bottle of wine, missing The Riches and working on our business idea for about 5 hours. My stomach still hurts from giggling so much. That's what happens when you start shouting "MAKE AAAART!", try and sing along to the low baritone of the guy from Cake and dance around to Michael Jackson's "Wanna Be Startin Somethin." I suppose I was in a good mood because a certain 23 year old from Calitho was trying to get me to go hot-tubbing with him and "talk." Um, yeah son - I'd eat you alive. I've learned my lesson with those young-uns (this should be where "Scalloped Edges" is introduced but that story will be posted later ;) ). Now maybe I am learning something in my drama-filled life because 6 months ago I probably would've said yes and gone for it, regretting it later. At least I'm not making them all run for the hills...

Fun times...at least it distracted from the gross goings-on on BART last night on my commute home. I sat there and watched three separate guys pick their nose (and I'm not talking a light swipe, I'm talking full finger) and then grab the handles on the train to steady themselves...do these people not understand that they can be seen?! I'm never touching anything again on the train...

This morning I'm supposed to be doing work, kinda. So true to fashion, I've slacked off and have been trying to figure out how to post music on here. Initially this was the reason I was going to do the blog anyway as I listen to pretty much everything and tend to associate music with major things in my life. Since Monday I've been listening to a LOT of Silversun Pickups, who released their last album in 2006 and I never gave it a second thought. Now I'm wishing I had because it's awesome and heartbreaking and perfect for my recent mood. So, here goes. Here's the link. I'm scared. This may not work and then there won't be fun things on here, just my writing...
Silversun Pickups - Rusted Wheel

Now, if only I could get pictures uploaded on here (I swear I'm not computer illiterate - I just keep getting the same screen that refuses to upload images) I would be set. OK, back to work....

Just breathe...

After talking about it for days and days and days (to pilfer from Lily Allen though I won't be eating Spaghetti Bolognese...) I finally am starting my own blog. Myspace was just too limiting dahling.

It just seems like a perfect time. After reconnecting with my family in England this past month, coming to the end of my mid-twenties (yes, 26 is still mid-twenties and I don't care what you say...) and ending probably one of the most important relationships I've been in since I started dating, I need to write it all out, figure out my mistakes, make people laugh. My life's a bloody soap opera and this shit technically all shouldn't be happening to one person but I bring it on myself (or at least that's what my best friend tells me...).

For those of you who don't know me, let me just give you a quick list of things that have happened to me since the year started:
-I didn't get a kiss when the clock struck midnight...which then ended up with a very heavy conversation and tears
-My sister (Chachel) disappeared, briefly materialized in Montana and is now at home on depression meds and we don't talk anymore
-I began to date my best guy friend (known as the Russian from here on out) only to have it end 2 1/2 months later but that's not the hard thing. He was my best friend for a year and a half beforehand and we've ceased all communication...for now.
-I went back to England for the first time in four years, only to see that I don't belong there anymore and California is now my home. It also made me realize I'll NEVER settle for anyone who's not right for me.
-I started a business with my best friend & roommate, Bell, in which we're going to be wildly rich and famous...hopefully...
-I learned that my job is shit and it's a race against time to find another one before they fire me.

And it's only April. Just. So, this is going to be a funny, heart-breaking recap of my life, my little life, filled with stupid movie quotes, weird English sayings, fabulous music, and a cautionary tale of how not to live life if you want to be drama-free...but where's the fun in that? ;)